Someone tells me their current lifestyle after going through a dark phase of tower after tower hitting their life. A dark night of the soul. A spiritual death. They ask me whether these choices are good or bad.
I smile and ask them, what is meant by "good" and "bad" - their rebirth.
I say, you have been through everything you could not control that brought you darkness and collapse. So, yes, that which you were once choosing you know now is not for you. But how do you know at this point, where you are now in control of your decisions, that you are making intentional moves? How do you know that it is not your ego i.e. more guards, wounds, fears, leading you? Everything that happened was to remove your ego, however, did you feel it was happening to you?
Your surrender is not to be mistaken with your ego keeping you in a false sense of identity or a state of illusion, disconnected from living out of your heart.
Your alignment is you consciously digging beneath all of everything you went through and deciding to release it all. To let it go so that your ego cannot force you to live in survival anymore.
THIS is where your tools come in. Tools? E.g. guidance, therapy, meditation, breathwork, bodywork... tools are personal to you. A conscious connection to all your states of being.
~ Jyoti